Well, day two I did pretty bad.
Tea and honey with my breakfast: 8 grams
Latte with half packet of brown sugar and soy: 7 grams + 16 grams
Chai Tea Latte with Soy: 46 grams
And really, that was it. But DANG. I felt like I was saying no all freaking day.
One sweet drink and boom, I’m jetted over my limit. I also have a headache and I’m cranky. Don’t talk to me. DON’T EVEN LOOK AT ME!!!!
———————————————————————————————————————————— (April 4th)
Day three was also bad.
Instant oatmeal pack: 15 grams
Brown sugar latte with soy: 7 grams + 16 grams
Honey Roasted nuts: 20 grams
Cookies: 25 grams
I have realized that I have eating habits so ingrained that I will accept something without even thinking about it, only to realize halfway through that I cant eat that. But let’s be honest, by the time you’ve eaten half of something delicious, there is no way you are not going to finish it.
So I do.
And I love it.
But then I have guilt!
Staying under 50 grams is proving a difficult task.
But, while eating right is important – and it is – I want to remember what is really important: learning to say no in the moment to something I want, for the sake of the greater reward in the end.
Because honestly, if I can’t learn how to retrain my taste buds, how can I learn to retrain my mind to follow after Christ? More often than not, following Christ is not the immediate satisfaction you can get from other pleasures this world can offer. More often than not, following Christ means denying what you want in the moment for the reward in the future.
Does that make the satisfaction any less?
No, just delayed.
Can I handle and desire a delayed satisfaction when I am surrounded by “instant”?
I pray so.